DAY 29: LOVE FEST

Sistahs, it is a full moon in Libra today and Libra is about balance. Is there balance in your life? Is there equal attention going to your dreams and the dreams of others? I think of it as the scales of justice as the place where everyone can be happy not just a few folks. Everything in the universe is always moving towards balance.

As we go deeper into Spring everything is transitioning to the light. We no longer need the heavy foods of winter and our bodies might be calling out for a few days of rest. I have been juice/green smoothie cleansing for the last three days. My body is releasing mucus and toxins. I also had allowed my sugar cravings to get the best of me and this cleanse has helped me get back on track. It is funny but had a dream last night that I was being chased by zombies but instead of it being a nightmare, I was fighting them - kicking them off. It was like one of those impossible action films. I was like Foxy Brown, lol. I think it was symbolizing my successful process in healing. The zombies or the illusions of life were not going to eat at me. I am strong now and I love my life. I woke this morning feeling energized!


Sistahs, I sense clearly that I am walking onto a new path. The Goddess/God had really blessed me and I am grateful. I recently got a Powerful Vulva reading (yes you heard correctly) from SistahGoddess Liaya. Here is a little more about her:

I’ve been practicing yoga for over 23 years, 10 of which have been as a Tantra and Taoist yoga teacher. My love of the stars lead me to become an astrologer over 25 years ago. I work with Tantric astrology as well as Western sidereal and seasonal, Kemetic, and Mayan astrological systems. My own personal journey also guided me to reclaim ancient Mother worship where I first heard of Tantra, Kama Sutra, Nubian Kemetic spiritual culture, and sacred sexuality. Learning to build sacred relationship is part of my mission. I’ve allowed myself to become a channel for healing energies using my gift of intuition and oracular abilities as well as my training with yoga traditions and direct lineage aboriginal healers. I’ve also worked as a rape crisis counselor and chemical dependency counselor. I’m a licensed minister and currently hold shrines for Bast, Sekhmet, Nit, Het Heru and Tripursundari. Lastly, my creative energies are currently focused on finishing my book “ Living Sacredly The Yogini Way, A Guide To Healing, Peace, Prosperity & Sacred Sexuality”, also an initiation workbook for young women and a CD “Restoring Feminine Balance.”

I have to let you all know that I got some serious insights from this reading - the Goddesses that are working with me and my vulva bliss path. Liaya said something so important to me while we were discussing my reading, "...the truth for women is in our vulva". She explained to me that so much focus is placed on the heart however it is the vulva that relays the truth to the heart. I was BLOWN AWAY! I am happy to say that she has agreed to do my first SistahGoddess BlogTalk radio interview and provide a few readings. So, I will be announcing the date of the premiere show. Sistah Liaya really uplifted me with her knowledge and I can tell she has lots of wisdom to share with us - so please join us!

In the meantime, if you wish to consult with Sistah Liaya Aneb Nua please contact her at bluestar131@hotmail.com or visit her blog www.shaktifire.blogspot.com

Peace and Hugs,
Sis. Camara

DAY 28: LoVe FeSt - NAKED!

Sistahs, do you ever have one of those days where when you hear the birds singing and just by their tone you know it is going to be a bright, sunny and light day? A day that folks where I live say - I think I want to go to the beach - be by the ocean, feel the sun on my face.

Sistahs, who came up with the idea of perfection? Who decided what was defined as perfect? Do you ever get up and look in the mirror and just LOVE who you are? When was the last time you walked around naked like the day you were born - being free to be who you are? Some folks haven't been naked in a while - they always seem to be rushing to 'put something on...'

Ever look at Sistahs in indigenous communities who can walk around without clothing? I always think to myself, "wow, this Sistahs's world is so safe and accepting...nothing and no one is telling her she needs to be ashamed or covered..." It is funny that those closest to nature - to the natural way they were born are labeled 'primitive' and one of the dictionary meanings of the word is "...pertaining to the beginning or origin." I am currently reading a book by Mama Zogbe' called Sibyls: The First Prophetess of Mami Wata. One of the first lines says, "African women are the only women in the world who Ancient Mothers were not born under the yoke of patriarchy. During ancient times, for the first 6,000 years, Africa was ruled by a powerful order of matriarchs." Just sit with that information and its implications...

We already know that Africa was the cradle of civilization, meaning all human being started there and migrated out...The oldest found remains of a humanoid being 4.4 million years old are of a female named Ardi, an Afar name meaning "ground floor" and the "root". Breath and sit with this... By the way Ardi is older than "Lucy" or her proper name Dinkenesh,” meaning “You are beautiful” or "you are wonderful" in Amharic, who lived some 3.2 million years ago... Both found in Africa... Just take this in...Lastly, inside each human being on this planet is a portion of the DNA inside these Ancient Mothers...

Sistahs, I say all this so you know that our history or better yet our Herstory is untold and suppressed. As we unfold and get to know and LOVE ourselves the encoded messages of our Ancient Mother SistahGoddesses will be revealed. We will be drawn towards the truth of who were are and from there I only see GREAT, POWERFUL things happening. Balance will be restored. Until that time we continue to uplift each other and chip away at the illusions.

Today, if just for a moment, be naked - look at yourself and see the truth of who you are - beautiful, Ancient, powerful and worthy.

Sis. Soraya posted this on facebook and I had to re-post...Erykah Badu's new video "Window Seat"


Peace and Hugs,
Sis. Camara

Day 26 & 27 : Lets Talk About Healing, Radio Show Today!

**PLEASE JOIN US!***
SOUL VISIONS RADIO SHOW TODAY AT 5PM (PST)/8PM (EST)
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/soul-visions-radio/2010/03/28/visions-of-healing-with-ayida-honor-and-guests
I am soooo glad that Sis. Marilyn introduced me to Sis. Ayida. Both are just wonderful souls. Sis. Ayida of Native Style already had me on the show talking about this blog and now she has re-invited me as a guest to speak about healing from abuse. She wants this to be a kitchen table discussion with us all. You know abusive relationships exist in many women's lives unfortunately...I have know women who where the picture of success who had do deal with this issue. It is time for us to lift the veil and share our stories...if just for our daughters and sons...

Hey Sistahs,
I am in for the weekend. I just need to chill and relax with some comfy clothes that don't match, some music and a good green smoothie. I have decided to take a break from "doing" and I am just going to BE. That being said, I am in the process of making some new dolls. I have some dolls that I am making for some Sistahs and a few for the little Sistahs & little Brothas I know.

I been thinking about LOVE lately - that relationship kinda LOVE and I feel like I have grown in the last couple of years into a different (I would like to think) and better person. I see clearly where I made some choices in men that really taught me some tough lessons about how I see myself. The healing path is so much about SELF REFLECTION. I am now in a place where I am beginning to think about exploring the option of being in a relationship again. This is BIG for me because I really can't foretell how that is going to look. Sistahs, I lurk conversations on the internet, on tv and radio where folks are talking about relationships AND I feel like I am from another planet- I just don't feel the LOVE.

I keep asking myself - can I find what I am 'looking' for or is it unrealistic? Maybe the type of relationship I desire with a man rarely exists?? I have all kinds of doubts AND then it is like I am hit over the head with the realization that I am a POWERFUL SISTAHGODDESS and that I can 'bring' into my space what ever type of union I desire. With that I leave the realm of LACK which I notice is a lot of problem with love conversations today - a lack of women who do this or a lack of men who do that...We can conjure up who ever we desire under the conditions we desire AND yes, what we think up is what we get. If I desire a man who's very tongue would not allow him to disrespect a woman then he is here. If I desire a man who is self aware, strong and comfortable with me being a self proclaimed SistahGoddess, then he is here.

Sistahs, I am going to say it - IF WE WANT IT, THEN WE CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN. Now some people don't want you to know that but I do. I dare add you can have it under the conditions you desire it as well...We are Co-Creators with the ONE GOD/GODDESS CREATOR and the reality is that we (human beings) are the makers of our world. Everything you see around us is the result of someone's thought pattern - the sofa you sit on to laws you obey, to tragedies that could have been avoided...This is why when we heal the Heart we are starting the process of Co-Creating the World in LOVE and SAFETY - fear no longer drives people to be unloving. The POWER is within us...

SOUL VISIONS RADIO SHOW TODAY AT 5PM (PST)/8PM (EST)
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/soul-visions-radio/2010/03/28/visions-of-healing-with-ayida-honor-and-guests
I am soooo glad that Sis. Marilyn introduced me to Sis. Ayida. Both are just wonderful souls. Sis. Ayida already had me on the show talking about this blog and now she has re-invited me as a guest to speak about healing from abuse. She wants this to be a kitchen table discussion with us all. You know abusive relationships exist in many women's lives unfortunately...I have know women who where the picture of success who had do deal with this issue. It is time for us to lift the veil and share our stories...if just for our daughters and sons...

Lets keep growin', lets keep lovin'

Hugs,
Sis. Camara

Days 24 & 25: ROYAL LOVE FEST!!!

Sistahs, we are a little bit more than half way through our LOVE FEST and I am feelin' good - really quite fine. This inward focus has been so healing for me - I feel balanced and cool. Last night I instead of sleeping with rose quartz and amethyst - I tried sleeping with rose quartz and smoky quartz under my pillow and wow, did I wake up from the most beautiful and interesting dream...In the dream I was in a crowd of people and I was organizing everyone for something special. I was asking people about themselves and they were asking me about myself. A couple of Sistahs walk into the group and said they were here to tell a story to the children. From there all of these beautiful Afrikan children started coming in down the path. I was telling folks we were going to break into small groups on the grass and tell our stories...my alarm went off...

I thought about this dream and what stuck with me was the importance of each one of our stories AND how it is the way in which the next generation learns. Perhaps the feeling of disconnection older people sometimes think they are experiencing with younger people is the loss of 'story time'. Do we still pass down our stories to children or do we just let them walk into life feeling their way around until they get it right. When is it ok to own-up to your past and tell the story of how you learned and how you healed? There is a certain love in telling the truth...

This Saturday, March 27 at 5pm Sis. Ayida Honor is going to host a special conversation on her Native Trade/Soul Visions radio show about healing from abuse. She has asked me to be in on the conversation AND really wants us ALL to be in on the conversation. So many of us Sistahs have healed from an abusive past and some of us are need of hearing the stories of healing...either way, we hope to just share let the time flow. You can access her show on www.blogtalk.com at Soul Vision's Radio.

I also want to mention that I am thinking of a concept for a SistahGoddess blogtalk radio show. I do have a guest lined up and I think she is going to blow some minds!!! I am just working out a few details and then I will let you all know when it will take place.

Sistahs now that yall are so on the LOVING PATH don't forget to share the LOVE. Sometimes it is those random acts of kindness that let others know that folks out there STILL CARE...Try it out...LOVE IT FORWARD -meaning pass that LOVE FORWARD to someone who doesn't even expect it. Brighten someone's day!

Here is a little music...


Hugs,
Sis. Camara

Days 22 & 23: LOVE FEST: Just WORKING IT ALL OUT

artist, Clifford Phillips

artist, Clifford Phillips

Sistahs,
I started taking walks the other day. The sun is shining and the air is warm and I really appreciate how nature guides us in these cycles. Just when I thought could not deal with anymore rain the Spring Equinox happens and the sun appears! I can feel how the mood of everyone shifts.

Being in this LoVe FeSt - I have this moment where I stop and really appreciate what IS. I realize I have a Beautiful and Caring Son who really likes being around me. Yes, we have our moments but our household is peaceful and loving. I live in a very quiet neighborhood which is surprising because so many people live in my complex. My little hood has wild turkeys and Canadian geese (who are just too funny with their territorial ways...). When I was walking the other day I saw a turkey hawk fly over me with dinner for her little babies. I am sooo thankful that the Creator led me to this place.

I say all of this to express how much Gratitude I am cultivating in this process. The rose quartz is really helping me to see how I can be more compassionate. I still see people's stuff and my own stuff - but the tongue is softer, the eyes are more gentle - it's like I see that we all go through stuff - its just the way it is AND eventually we heal or we don't...

I am GRATEFUL FOR ALL YOU SISTAHS! You all are a healing light!
I appreciate you and thank the Goddess/Mother/Father/God for you!

Hugs,
Sistah Camara

This video is to SHOW YOU that IT IS ALL IN THE MIND...We can do and be who ever we WANT to be. We all have a unique, beautiful talent and service to bring to humanity...

DAYS 20 &21: LoVe of FREEDOM!

Sistahs,
I had a recent experience that unfortunately confirms that our work still is in front of us. When I feel overwhelmed or feel a bit down - which is ALWAYS temporary - I look to women all over the world who are doing so much with less. These women are paving a new way where there is none. They are stopping wars, building new communities, ending the needless suffering of our little ones.

My own personal work is calling me more and more...I am motivated by the LOVE of Freedom and the LOVE us ALL. We all have a divine right to live life to the fullest. Lets keep moving forward to break the chains of illusion.

First clip:
This is the trailer for a documentary called Pray the Devil Back to Hell. I have not seen it yet but plan to soon. Please see the second interview that inspired me very deeply....



Interview...


video clip, "fighting for peace..."


Peace,
Sis. Camara

DAY 19: Planting the SEED of LOVE

Happy Spring SiSTARS! How have you been? I have made it a point to be completely present in my household this weekend. Sis. Talibah has shown me some beautiful pictures of her favorite places and her home inspires me the most with all the colors and tea cups. I decided that I was going to welcome in spring by creating a patio get-a-way...So, today I went to the store and got some planter boxes and even one of those upside down tomato planters. There is a very nice nursery in a nearby city that carries some higher end plants but they also have some items that are very affordable. Today they had all kinds of organic seedlings and I fell for a small cluster of gourmet salad greens. I also go some non-gmo seeds - bell pepper, cherry tomato, and purple onion. I went to my mailbox later and wouldn't you know - Sis. Talibah sent me some beautiful sweet pea flower seeds! Talk about synchronicity!

So Sistahs, this time in our LoVe FeSt is about 'planting the seeds' of our love. Everyone has a reason or two for participating in this heart healing process. It is a good time to think about what steps you can take to achieve your heart goals. At day 19 I feel myself getting to the root of my desire...I have visualized some things I wish to accomplish and the kind of life I really wish to live. It feels good to feel open to possibility.

Here is a nice Spring Seed ritual to focus your desires...

You will need:
1 smallish soup bowl
1 cup or less of sesame seeds
a white piece of paper
a pen (choose an ink color that speaks to you)

In a quiet place take a moment to sit quietly and reflect on the passing of winter and the lessons you have learned. Give thanks. Section your white piece of paper into smaller 2" by 2" pieces. On the small pieces of paper write down your goals or desires.

Now sit in prayer and call in the Creator, your Venerated Ancestors and Venerated Spirit Guides. Give thanks to them all for guiding you and seeing you through to this time. Speak with them about your desires, your goals and ask them to help you achieve your dreams.

Take your empty bowl in your hands and visualize it as a container for possibilities.

Take your sesame seeds and pour them into the bowl - visualize them as the seeds of possibility - vast and unlimited.

Now read each dream/desire/goal aloud. Take each one and fold it small and bury them into the bowl of seeds. Tuck your desires/dreams/goals into your vessel of infinite possibilities...

You can keep adding to the bowl as the days go by or pick out one and re-read it...it is ALL up to you...keep the bowl in an undisturbed place where you see it each day...

Here is a little Ursula Rucker LOVE...


Hugs,
Sis. Camara