Monday, April 21, 2008
Picture: Selina Fenech
A few mornings ago I woke up feeling sensual - feeling sensations that I would have recalled in the past as sexual...
I am not about to get "freaky" on you but I am trying to describe this feeling. I have not had this feeling before although it felt familiar... It reminded me of an love from a distant past but still it was different. The more I tried to link this feeling to him the more it was not him.
All that day I found this energy that I woke up with made me smile all day...it was very ecstatic. Now I will be honest - I kept wondering if was just me wanting to experience love again. Then it was as if the Ancestors spoke to me in a flash - I heard, "Its is you. This "feeling" is what it is like to be in love with yourself." WOW!!! After hearing for so long that before you can love, you have to love yourself- and INTELLECTUALLY understanding it, I finally knew how it felt. It is not just sexual but it is that feeling of butterflies, satisfaction, excitement, peace and ecstasy all wrapped up in one. The feeling of deep knowingness- of love that is complete. I use to think that this was something I could get from someone else. When that hit came from the Ancestors I knew that I had found TRUE LOVE. It does not have to do with how I look or something superficial - it was more about my final realization of self acceptance....of connection with my cosmic flow...the tapping into the heart energy that is connected to the core light of this earth. It feels beautiful, safe and pure.