Thursday, November 11, 2010

Who Are You?

I like this picture of Sistah Marguerite Laurent as Ezili Danto. The Spirit Ezili Danto slices through the illusion with her knife.

Sistahs, there is this part in the movie The Matrix where the main character finds the veils of the two worlds he is living in is thin. Half of him believes he is a regular guy with a job who works everyday while another part of him senses his life is much deeper than what is on the surface. Often I identify with this place...there is a part of my life that feels a bit mundane - I perform the duties of that life in automatic but there is a part of me that knows that another reality- another purpose awaits me.

I often find myself amused and many time frustrated that people want to regulate me or themselves to a one dimensional life. A life that has been created for them to simply fulfill a minimal existence. Despite all the signs that we are GREAT and our capacity to serve a high will is vast, there are still many of us who find the small places - the tiny spaces safe. Those little cubicles that they wish could contain them can not fit the boldness of their Spirit. Just as I refuse to be stuffed into that box to make others feel ok about their own acceptance of minimalism. Why do all this? Why is there comfort illusion?

Yesterday, it came to me that I am UNAFRAID to KNOW the Wombyn I was meant to be - even if all of what I believe has be torn down so that SHE can be revealed - then so BE IT! My life is not the toy of whims nor is it subject to belief systems that hold me small,insignificant and/or invisible - it can't be because I accept the Divine Nature in which I was made. Associations, past decrees(spiritual and man-made), cultural baggage, fears, greed, jealousy, servitude, limitations of all forms have NO POWER OVER ME.

Sistahs, the path of your destiny can sometimes feel lonely but know it is an illusion. The 'small life' feeds off of the fear we will lose our connection with others and be alone. It is natural to want to be in communion with each other - this is a human need AND it keeps us healthy. KNOW THIS, when you take steps to "release the cage" and take dominion in your life you will meet others who also are taking these steps. You then begin to value those who live in their own truth and have little time for those who wish to toil in drama, cliques and illusion. Spiritually you will begin to do the fire walk - you move towards your fears and watch them dissolve as you realize they are just pieces of old stories wrapped in the bondage of generational pain, confusion and suffering. Those fears have NO POWER OVER YOU. The minute you stand up to them they disappear - they can't win the war against truth.

Sistah, I write to remind myself constantly of the truth of who I am. Taking on life authentically requires courage and fortitude - in short guts! Your are FREE to live the life you want to live - any system that tells you to give up your power or that someone has power over you is a lie. There are many people out there who make it their business to generate and feed fear -the unsuspecting find themselves following their illusions and years later find themselves in the same place or worse off still holding the torch of suffering as if it is worthy of honor. We are so much more and we must be unafraid to see who we really are...

It is in my complete reverence for life that I write this...

Peace and Hugs,
Sis. Camara