Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Home-less...

There is a powerful healing in the spoken truth of Sunni Patterson Below is another clip - We Know This Place. (if you get my blog on email you will have to go to the site to www.sistahgoddess.com to view it)


This is the second time in my life that I have been "home-less". The first time was a fluke because a roommate and I could not find a place to live in San Francisco after giving our month's notice. We had no clue that San Francisco during that time was going through a huge real estate crunch - it was the .com era and everyone and their mama was in the city. We would go to look at an apartment and there were about twenty people there taking applications. It even got to the point where people were paying more than what landlords were asking. Yes, it was unreal and well later we found out how unreal...
This time I am going through a divorce. The details I won't bore you with...but know I had to leave with my clothes, my son's belongings and a few boxes of whatever I could gather. I am now in a room in my mother's home -figuring out the lesson of my experience. I have been challenged during this time because I have never been so dependent except when I was a child - yet here I am...It takes a lot of patience to be in this place because you have to find your gratitude everyday. I have ups and downs - some days I come out of bed fighting and other days I feel defeated - like I have failed somehow...then its like a miracle - a friend will call and lift me up and there I am again fighting-rising up out of my ashes. It hard to describe this horrible yet Beautiful process. I continue to find the place in me that knows that I am blessed and know that my ancestors have my back.
ON THE FLIP SIDE...

Today, I took a visit with some friends to a co-housing community. I have dreamt of developing a co-housing community for years with like-minded Afrikans. The place we visited in the heart of Atlanta was built on 1 acre of land and across the street was a land trust that housed a playground, garden,sweat house, community theatre and a snack shack. It was so beautiful how the land trust connected to individual homes with various paths to the outer neighborhood. The co-housing community was so cute and organic with lots of shared outdoor space and a communal building. The community meets once to twice a week and shares one meal on the weekends. Imagine the types of relationships and nation-building that could take place if we all lived in a sustainable way - growing our food, healing ourselves, nurturing/educating our children, providing for our needs of shelter and security. Here are some pictures from today.

2 comments:

Ann Brock said...

Your post touch my heart. I am in a marriage that I should be getting out of but I am afraid of being homeless. Like you some morning I get up with a fight but my fight leaves as soon as my day begin. Good luck!

Sistah Camara said...

Dear Ann,
I pray that you stay strong in your fight. Do what is right your soul and spirit when the time is right. I didn't know how much support I actually had until I left.
Peace,
Sistah C