Responsibility

Sistahs, just last night my shrine gave me one last lesson to learn for the year of 2010 - responsibility. This year all I can do is give so much thanks to the Mother Spirit for nurturing me, teaching me and helping me to re-remember the SHE in ME. For so long my eyes were clouded with a vision of life that was unnatural to me - I found myself frustrated most of the time because I could not fit into that life no matter how I tried. When I decided to simply let go and be who I AM...At first it felt like isolation but I held on and started to connect with like minded Sistahs who were also feeling the same thing. This whole year has felt like a family reunion to me.

So, the Mother Within spoke to me this morning and what I understood was that the future is here! Now is the time for those of us who have re-remembered to work together. Before any collaboration can take place each of us must make a declaration of responsibility. Sistahs, the man-made world insists on hierarchies -someone above and someone below. In a limited world view only some can be leaders the rest of us must follow. Leadership however is a mechanism within each of us that has to be activated. Why? Each of us has an important part - a unique part to contribute to the transition of this world community. ONE part missing leaves us in imbalance. This imbalance is where we rest now-in limitation. We are LIMITLESS beings dreaming a nightmare of limitation.

When we take responsibility for our uniqueness and yes, our individuality, we see our eternal connection. We are no longer fooled by systems, cults, so-called cultural ideologies that root us in suffering and render us powerless to take dominion in our lives. WE ARE THE BEFORE OF THE BEFORE. Any condition that asks you to uphold another human being as more powerful than you; that asks you to uphold an ideology in which you must submit to group think; that ask you to submit to on group because you are born of an inferior group; that ask you to submit to a limited role; that asks you to kill nature, your emotions, your compassion and your love IS ASKING YOU TO NOT BE IN RESPONSIBILITY. The paradox is that you ARE STILL RESPONSIBLE AS A FOLLOWER.

The move for many wombyn to find their path back to the Divine Feminine is a BEAUTIFUL AND POWERFUL experience. Be careful Sistahs to understand it is not about a new paradigm operating in a man-made world under man-made conditions. The Divine Feminine can NOT exist in man-made containers under such weak limitations. The Mother Within asks us to take responsibility - to walk with an understanding and honoring of this energy. I also get that it asks us to be active in healing ourselves, healing the earth and loving others. USE YOUR POWER FOR GOOD.

I SPEAK MY WORD to serve the Mother Within and take responsibility by being the most POWERFUL and COMPASSIONATE WOMBYN I AM while assisting in providing my own unique skills and gifts to the preparation and completion of world healing.

Happy New Year! May it be BIGGER than you imagine!

Peace and Hugs!!
Sis. Camara

LUV

Sistahs,

I can't seem to express how much I appreciate and LUV my life! I have learned this year that it is important to keep pushin', sometimes even fighten' for the things you deserve even when it seems that challenges are insurmountable. Last week my son and I went away for his birthday and a small business trip. We had such a great time together! I think of where I was just a couple of years ago - we could barely shop for food. During these times I knew that my life would change...I knew that I had to believe in myself even if life presented me with situations that seemed to tell another story. During those times my son went without many times...Like many young boys there has been a lack of consistent role models for him...I would always encourage him to be himself - to love himself, think for himself and do the right thing for that is really what a man is made of...On his 18th birthday I saw the emergence of a new young man. My co-workers constantly commented on him - his intelligence, his demeanor and his awareness. I am very proud to be his mother. I felt equally happy to be able to take him on a trip to celebrate a new chapter in his life - a self defined young manhood.

Happy Birthday!!!

The Gift of Insecurity...

The other day I went to one of my favorite sites, the Osho Zen website to get a quick divination and the words read: ‎"...Insecurity is the only way to grow, to face danger is the only way to grow, to accept the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow."...The reading was so right on for me. I find myself at times staring at the life in front of me - looking at the accomplishments, the treasures, the "good" and "bad" of it, however lately this life has been feeling much like a blank slate. I spent a lot of 2010 unlearning, unraveling limitations that I have clung to for so long...Some parts of this process was easy cause "...the shit was tired and old...", yet other parts were more difficult. Some belief systems shake your very foundation. When faced with those moments one can decide to cling to what is familiar and secure or face that in the unknown may be even a greater treasure - a greater life.

For a long time I use to have dreams of being chased by a crazy person who wanted to kill me. In the dream, I was in a house, desperately trying to survive. It felt real- I am sure that my heart was beating fast in my sleep. Once I started to trust myself and honor myself I noticed that the dreams lessen and the last time I had the dream I did something different - I decided to fight the person - this symbol of fears. The house was the symbol for my life.

Funny, how a dream can teach you much about life. Many of us live in a nightmare of comfort...We have built a reality - a life that we accept 'as is'. As long as life does not change we find ease in the predictability of it all yet there is a hunger that starts with a quiet pang then it grows to a growl and when that is not satisfied the hunger turns to longing. I find in those moments one can invite anything into life - any drama to help take your mind off the void.

As I think of the new year that is upon me - I wish to reach for the unknown as my guide pass limitation. I am deciding to face the danger to being BIGGER, more POWERFUL, MORE DYNAMIC even at the risk of disrupting the comfort of relationships that assume I would never wish to achieve such heights...

Please Support Virtual Art & Crafts Wombyn's Show

Greetings,
I wanted to let my blog readers know that this weekend our Wombyn Studies Sistahs will be hosting our 1st Arts & Crafts Wombyn's Bazaar. The show will feature guest artists from around the world! November 28th, 10am (PST)/1pm (EST) The day of go to http://www.linqto.com/rooms/WombynStudies -no web cam is necessary, you can use your headphones (ipod/mp3 player is fine). Hope you will log-on and support our artists!



Peace,
Sis. Camara

The Safest Place in Somalia

Here is a very powerful story about a wombyn who is creating change. Very inspiring.

The Safest Place in Somalia

Who Are You?

I like this picture of Sistah Marguerite Laurent as Ezili Danto. The Spirit Ezili Danto slices through the illusion with her knife.

Sistahs, there is this part in the movie The Matrix where the main character finds the veils of the two worlds he is living in is thin. Half of him believes he is a regular guy with a job who works everyday while another part of him senses his life is much deeper than what is on the surface. Often I identify with this place...there is a part of my life that feels a bit mundane - I perform the duties of that life in automatic but there is a part of me that knows that another reality- another purpose awaits me.

I often find myself amused and many time frustrated that people want to regulate me or themselves to a one dimensional life. A life that has been created for them to simply fulfill a minimal existence. Despite all the signs that we are GREAT and our capacity to serve a high will is vast, there are still many of us who find the small places - the tiny spaces safe. Those little cubicles that they wish could contain them can not fit the boldness of their Spirit. Just as I refuse to be stuffed into that box to make others feel ok about their own acceptance of minimalism. Why do all this? Why is there comfort illusion?

Yesterday, it came to me that I am UNAFRAID to KNOW the Wombyn I was meant to be - even if all of what I believe has be torn down so that SHE can be revealed - then so BE IT! My life is not the toy of whims nor is it subject to belief systems that hold me small,insignificant and/or invisible - it can't be because I accept the Divine Nature in which I was made. Associations, past decrees(spiritual and man-made), cultural baggage, fears, greed, jealousy, servitude, limitations of all forms have NO POWER OVER ME.

Sistahs, the path of your destiny can sometimes feel lonely but know it is an illusion. The 'small life' feeds off of the fear we will lose our connection with others and be alone. It is natural to want to be in communion with each other - this is a human need AND it keeps us healthy. KNOW THIS, when you take steps to "release the cage" and take dominion in your life you will meet others who also are taking these steps. You then begin to value those who live in their own truth and have little time for those who wish to toil in drama, cliques and illusion. Spiritually you will begin to do the fire walk - you move towards your fears and watch them dissolve as you realize they are just pieces of old stories wrapped in the bondage of generational pain, confusion and suffering. Those fears have NO POWER OVER YOU. The minute you stand up to them they disappear - they can't win the war against truth.

Sistah, I write to remind myself constantly of the truth of who I am. Taking on life authentically requires courage and fortitude - in short guts! Your are FREE to live the life you want to live - any system that tells you to give up your power or that someone has power over you is a lie. There are many people out there who make it their business to generate and feed fear -the unsuspecting find themselves following their illusions and years later find themselves in the same place or worse off still holding the torch of suffering as if it is worthy of honor. We are so much more and we must be unafraid to see who we really are...

It is in my complete reverence for life that I write this...

Peace and Hugs,
Sis. Camara

Survival Strategies

You know, Sistahs at times I can get into survival. I think about strategies that would help me sustain in life's worse situations - flood, earthquake, apocalypse...I vision myself like McGyver yet a GODDESS with a backpack, a stick of gum, herbs, candles, matches, cowrie shells, florida water and INTENT.

When doubts plague you, when you experience the most seeming insurmountable obstacles, it is risky to push forward. This morning I was thinking about a situation and I felt twisted - I could see where I want to be but the path seem unfamiliar, uneven and unpredictable. Despite all this, I felt supported and the shrine message came, "...in case of a high winds, sunken holes, blackouts, fires, flood and your own limiting thoughts - KEEP GOING!"

The Goddess in McGyver mode knows that the goal is more important than the little blockages. The mission can withstand the naysayers and the disbelievers. On every HERO's JOURNEY there is the test, whether it is a natural disaster, a non supporter or one's own shadow - the victory is in finding a way to move beyond the limitation. Sometimes your very core will be tested but if you really see the result STAY THE COURSE!

As one of my FB friends says, "..stay encouraged!"

Peace,
Sis. C