Wombyn Studies Launches!!!

Greetings Sistahs,
I woke up the other day and the Great Mother was sitting with me. She has this way of making suggestions while I am meditating and before I know it I am following her lead. For some time now I had been thinking of my own personal education - I have been here and there searching for knowledge - it was like I had this invisible drive to find something...

I realize from the beginning I was a different child - so different that it cause waves with my relationship with my mother. She was always saying, "why do you have to be so different?" I fell into a relationship with her where I was always trying to "tone it down" to fit in but in the end my wildwombyn self would just bust out! I have put myself in a lot of predicaments because people wanted me to be this little sweet obedient gurl AND my Spirit was not even trying to have it - you see I am a POWERFUL and VERY FREE WOMBYN - it is in my blood. It is like the Alice Walker title, 'You Can't Keep A Good Woman Down'.

Now with an even greater taste of Freedom on my tongue - I followed the direction of Spirit and spent the last three days creating a sacred space - a space for SistahGoddesses to contribute to and learn more about the Divine Feminine. The hope is that we come together in openness AND that we make the information accessible to every Sistah who needs it. I know some people make their living from their scholarship and this is not to negate that but I feel that the time has come to open the gates of wisdom so that we can usher in a new day.

I hope all SistahGoddesses will join and contribute to Wombyn Studies. This is just phase 1 of the site so more is to come...Check it out and become a member http://wombynstudies.ning.com

I appreciate your support and wisdom!

For Brothas who wish to know more about the Divine Feminine and how she is informing your life (cause she is...) you can check out Bro. Majadi Baruti at the Rooftop Garden http://www.blogtalkradio.com/udjatemple and http://www.udjatemple.blogspot.com


Hugs,
Sis. Camara

If the Goddess Ain't Happy, then what is there???

Hey SiSTARS! I am just checkin' in to see how you are doing. I am feeling good, livin the life AND I got to say that it just clicked to me the other day that life can be very simple. Do you ever find yourself confronted with some drama and in the middle of it just wave it off like, "Whatever!!!"? Well, I tell you life can be like that some time - the simplest and most efficient option is to just "drop it!" I think we walk around in life carrying other people's stuff. You can be feeling real good and here comes somebody with some stuff and you know how humans are - they are trying to unload it on somebody - anger, rage, depression, lack - whew! Sistahs, when they try to hand it to you - just drop it!

I use to be one of those people who thought that I could help everyone. I gave a lot of my precious energy to people who weren't even thinking of trying to heal themselves- they were just addicted to drama in their lives. After a while I would be resentful cause when I had a problem they were too busy with their dramatic lives. I also had some notion that being a healer meant excusing selfish behavior cause folks were suffering or hurt - dang!!! - one day I looked up and I was juggling everybody's stuff and my life was in deep need of my attention.

I think many wombyn suffering from what I call the 'mule' complex - we have a lot of other peoples lives strapped to our back and we are walking up a steep hill and the carrot - oh yes, the carrot is - not wanting to disappoint others or wanting to feel wanted/needed...Funny, how that carrot is always just out there, far away enough where you can't really reach it. Why? Cause the all that wanting and all those desires need to be fulfilled on the inside. I am sorry to say this but you can't make anyone happy except yourself. You can spread goodwill and do kind things that uplift people but you don't have the power to make them happy - happiness is an inside job.

When the Goddess is Happy then Everyone IS Happy! When you are in a good mood and feeling on top of your world it is funny how you can spread the wealth of that feeling. Sistahs, I am a true believer that we are walking powerhouses and we ATTRACT all kinds of stuff, all kinds of people and energy...So your energy is very precious and it is sacred just like the rest of you...Devote your time, your essence and energy to efforts that serve your highest good and see how everything and everyone around you benefits naturally, organically...

I love the Tao that is translated by Stephen Mitchell cause he interchanges the feminine and the masculine when referring to the Master. This book is what I believe to be a good foundation for working with the present. For me, I felt it was truth because it referred to the Tao as the Great Mother... Here is a verse I feel compliments this post:

"Empty your mind of all thoughts.
Let your heart be at peace.
Watch the turmoil of beings,
but contemplate their return.

Each separate being in the universe
returns to the common source.
Returning to the source is serenity.

If you don't realize the source,
you stumble in confusion and sorrow.
When you realize where you come from,
you naturally become tolerant,
disinterested, amused,
kindhearted as a grandmother,
dignified as a king.
Immersed in the wonder of the Tao,
you can deal with whatever life brings you,
and when death comes, you are ready."


Have a beautiful week - LOVE YOURSELF and shape your world to be a garden in which you can grow.

Hugs,
Sis. Camara

The Great Mother: Growing the Learning Circle

Hey Sistahs! I have been listening to blogtalk again and LUV'ing the wisdom teachings that I am receiving. I have decided to continue my education in the realm of the Goddess. I want to know even more about my beautiful Great Mother. I have decided to stop getting myself in debt and uplifting so called educational institutions that really do not teach the truth or the wholeness of truth. For years I have home-schooled my child either full time or part time for all of his life and now I think I am ready to claim such a educational path for myself. The upper roads of knowledge are available to us all. I believe we can share our wisdom to re-remember and heal to our rightful place in society.

Information is interesting - there is great information, good information and bad information. I think a good student of life is open to all teachings and is able use her intuition - inner self- to decide what is worth taking in as knowledge that will lead to wisdom. I like learning from my peers - I think this is why I like being in conversation with Sistahs - I feel so much gratitude when we share our wisdom.

Sistahs, tonite I realize that we are the ones that could stop the cycle of abuse and disrespect to Wombyn. Many of you responded in private to my last post AND I thank you. Right after I wrote that post I sat on it and did not publish it - then I got a message to post. I realize that we all at some point have had to feel around in the dark - to find our way to freedom - to find a way to heal and honor ourselves as Divine. It is time that we share what we know - we are a wealth of wisdom - I saw that in the 40-day Love Fest.

Sistahs, this blog is and will continue to be a place for our wisdom, our learning, our sharing our laughter and our love.

Thank you for your continued upliftment!

PS. Please check out The Woman is the First Teacher on Black Wombniverse. The man they feature on the clips had asked to be my FB friend and I did not even check him out!! Wow, after I heard his comments I was in shock - I was wondering why I even had this person in my realm!! Needless to say he has been deleted.

Thanks to the Sistahs for mentioning this poem in the show...Before the Men Came, Pearl Cleage


Hugs,
Sis. Camara

The Price of Freedom

Sistahs, I had a moment today where I realized that sometimes there is a price for Freedom. By freedom, I mean the opportunity and divine right to think, live, walk and dream as individual with her OWN MIND. In my life I have had to pay the price for making decisions that were not in my best interest. Even as I look back on the day I was going to get married I could see that moment where I could have changed my mind - but that girl I was then did not want to disappoint people or look foolish but the woman now - years later has to pay for that girl who didn't speak up for herself.

Sistahs, marriage and relationships are all very good things when they are in your best interest - when you can still be yourself and have your compliment to live with you at your side who truly loves and respects you, however when you marry or commit yourself to someone and you have doubts and questions - then take your time and feel very OK to change your mind. I believe now that it is your DIVINE RIGHT to always seek the best path for your life if at the risk of betraying other people. I don't care if the dress is brought, the invitations are sent, the money has been put down for the food and the hall, the President is coming -if it ain't right -change it! Trust me the price you pay now will be much less than the price you pay later. And there will be a price.

Even in my marriage, I could have just stayed. I could have just kept taking the stuff like I see so many people do -like I was advised by some ill-fated women to do. It is funny how we can create our own prison. Trust me I could have still been there - a life in hell and lost.

It is moments like this where I KNOW I have learned my difficult and necessary lesson. I rejoice in the fact that somewhere inside of me I believed I was worth it. Each day I give thanks for my freedom - that I am able to care for my son. I am still cleaning up the chaos of that past but it feels good to be emerging on the other side of it. This morning I pulled an Osho Zen Tarot card and it was the BREAKTHROUGH card, it said,

"...Your chaos is very ancient - for many, many lives you have been in chaos. It is thick and dense. It is almost a universe in itself. So when you enter into it with your small capacity, of course there is danger. But without facing this danger nobody has ever become integrated, nobody has ever become an individual, indivisible."

This is so true, if I didn't leave that prison how would have know the type of woman I could be? Would I know that self worth starts from within and can not be given by someone else? Would I have realized that many of my relationships where based on my own feelings of low self worth? Yes, the chaos of who I was and am IS the catalyst for healing. By going there and standing in it (the muck and dirt of it) I was able to integrate all of who I am.

I know some Sistahs who are married who are FREE - I see the genuine love and respect their husbands have for them AND I know it is possible. Some of us pick out our car more carefully than we do a mate - we make sure it works, suits our needs, compliments our style and we compare it to make sure we are getting the right deal. Well, the same and additional rigorous care needs to be exercised when considering a life mate...Do you match or rather do your vibration/energy level match? Does he compliment you? Doe someone need to change radically for this relationship to work? Does he fit in your life or are your friends and family slowly moving away and out of your life? How does he treat his mother (even if she is crazy)? How does he talk about women he doesn't like? Do you wince at the descriptions he uses to describe his former lovers? How does he treat the waitstaff when you go out to eat or any service provider? Now lets bring it to the womb area...What does your womb say? Are you happy and healthy? Yes, there are more questions but it is really the answer to just the few that gives you a clue...

I have come to understand that I am precious, unique and divinely qualified to have exactly what I desire in the way I desire it. I no longer feel as if I need to take the second best option or the lesser of two evils. I am not running out of time nor do I need someone to take care of me. My contributions to my community are just fine whether I am married or not. With that out of the way, I set a standard for myself and I feel a peaceful calm in manifesting the right mate for myself.

Sistahs, we are the shrine - the path of the divine is in us. Let only what is sacred and holy be accepted by our divine being.

Peace,
Sis. Camara

New Moon...

Hey Sistahs,

I am writing a quick note to say I am re-scheduling my New Moon Visionaries Radio Show for the next new moon. In the end I felt a little rushed and for me this show is about the vibration of Spirit, Wisdom and Divine Peace - so I want to be a little more settled from my hectic work schedule. My guest Liaya agrees that the alignment of the planets is also saying wait - Mercury is going into retrograde so communications will be a challenge for some. I have learned that everything has its right moment.

I have a couple of geese out side my apartment that have decided to build their nest near the entrance of my building. The challenge has been that they are very protective of the entire space surrounding the entrance of my building. I have been taking it in stride the little ones should make their appearance soon. The wild turkeys and my neighbors have not been as patient, lol. Turkeys and Geese fighting is an interesting scene - my neighbor saying she was in a fetal position on the grass because of one of the geese was a bit funny. The neighbor said she complained but what could be done? I thought that some people are so weird when it comes to nature - they want to spray and kill everything as if it does not have a purpose. It is a sad way of looking at life.

Today is the new moon and it is a perfect time to examine the hidden parts of ourselves. It is also a great time to honor the mystery of the unknown that will soon reveal itself - like tiny baby geese from their shells. That which is just born is considered in many ways innocent and in need of protection. This new moon is asking me to nurture and protect the new self I am birthing - to appreciate the shadowy parts of my future and not be afraid of what I can not see in this moment...It is also giving me a nudge to step out on faith and go for a dream that will emerge just as the moon light emerges after this new moon.

Sistahs, continue to live in your light and honor those shadows from which your greatness blooms.

Hugs,
Sis. Camara

40 DAY LOVE FEST WRAP UP!

artist, SithLordLisa

Sistahs, I have been away on business and just couldn't break away to write during this time. Now I am at the airport and I am finally feeling like I have catch up with you all and just go over the beauty of this BEAUTIFUL process we have called the LOVE FEST!

First, I have to say that in this process I have realized that Love- true love is really an INWARD process. I feel as if some transformation has happened for me and it was not the way I visioned it...I actually think it turned out even better. I have a peace that has taken me some years to develop. My mind is not consumed with or racing with thoughts of how to be perfect in the eyes of someone else - instead I am so content with who I AM. I have know for a while that true love needs to be cultivated on the inside but I think I now know this on all levels.

In all ways I see how this LOVE FEST has allowed me to re-shape situations that I have found challenging in the past. Now I feel that I can truly change parts of my life that need to change. I have found the alchemist inside and she is working to bring light and well being to all parts of my life. I also have seen how many of relationships belong to the old me - a person who was not too confident or sure of herself - so now I am stepping out to follow my own path and just be. It takes that inward LOVE to do this - I can say I no longer need approval to live my life to the fullest. I feel very FREE - very liberated - it is like the last shackle has been released from around my ankles - self imposed...

Sistahs, we all have our own lives to live. We all have things to contribute to the world and we all have our own paths. I continue to learn more about this powerful wombyn that I AM. I know I have 10,000 Ancestors who back me AND want me to succeed in any endeavor I choose to take on...this is true power. No one can give this to you and they certainly do not have the power to take it away from you. Sistahs, your LOVE heals the world.

Lets keep loving and unfolding to our true self - this is our divine right.

I have been working on a new project Sistahs - just in time for the blooming of this LOVE FEST! I am now going to have a monthly radio show called New Moon Visionaries on blogtalk radio. Yes, it will be on or around the new moon of each moon. The mission of the show is the same as this blog - to uplift and heal the SistahGoddesses of the world. My goal is to make this a forum to sharing all aspect of ourselves to help each other grow and develop.

My first guest will be SistahGoddess Liaya Aneb Nua, Bliss Activist, Teacher, Healer. She recently provided me with my very own vulva chart reading. It was very illuminating. She will be providing mini-consultations on the radio show. We will be talking about the how the vulva is the wombyn's wisdom center and it informs our lives daily. See her bio below.

The New Moon Visionaries show will take place on the 14th - times will be announced this week!

Liaya's Bio
I’ve been practicing yoga for over 23 years, 10 of which have been as a Tantra and Taoist yoga teacher. My love of the stars lead me to become an astrologer over 25 years ago. I work with Tantric astrology as well as Western sidereal and seasonal, Kemetic, and Mayan astrological systems. My own personal journey also guided me to reclaim ancient Mother worship where I first heard of Tantra, Kama Sutra, Nubian Kemetic spiritual culture, and sacred sexuality. Learning to build sacred relationship is part of my mission. I’ve allowed myself to become a channel for healing energies using my gift of intuition and oracular abilities as well as my training with yoga traditions and direct lineage aboriginal healers. I’ve also worked as a rape crisis counselor and chemical dependency counselor. I’m a licensed minister and currently hold shrines for Bast, Sekhmet, Nit, Het Heru and Tripursundari. Lastly, my creative energies are currently focused on finishing my book “ Living Sacredly The Yogini Way, A Guide To Healing, Peace, Prosperity & Sacred Sexuality”, also an initiation workbook for young women and a CD “Restoring Feminine Balance.”

Join us in this sacred space. More info to come shortly.


Hugs,
Sis. Camara

DAYS 33, 34, 35 and 36 of LOVE FEST:

Hey Sistahs,
I am sorry I have been out of touch for the last few days but life/work calls. I am happy to say that we have just four more days of this 40 day LOVE FEST. This process has opened me up - not just to LOVE but to possibility. I feel more and more that I have somehow entered the realm of the alchemist. I see how I can experience more beautiful and positive outcomes in my life simply by focusing my energy on what I desire instead of what I don't desire.

I have been so happy to go through this process with you Sistahs. It has been a loving time - a time of self exploration and healing. New ideas have emerged from me and I am feeling more and more that I have the tools to live the life I desire NOW.

I look forward to hearing how these 40 days went for you.

Peace and Love,
Sis. Camara

DAY 32: LoVe FeSt Forgiveness Fire

artist, Francis Amoah>artist, Francis Amoah

Ummm, Sistahs we have 8 more days of this 40 day LOVE FEST...And I am checking-in...
How has this journey been for you? For me it has been like a gentle flower unfolding. I think working with the Rose quartz and now combined with the Smoky Quartz there has been a gentle reflection back to me on where some of the blockage was coming from.

This morning I had a strange dream but I realized later that it was a gentle probe of the past by the Spirit World. The memories where not pleasant but this time I was able to just watch them and see how far I have come. I realized I am a woman who has had a lot of experiences - I have lived my life and continue to live my life. Each day I am excited by my journey and the newness of the day. I am curious to see what Spirit will cross my path and what will I learn from that interaction.

This morning at my altar, the Ancestors were already there...They saw the dream and they wanted me to know that I was ready to access deeper truths. It was revealed to me that all of the suffering of the past was burning away in a gentle blue flame -cool. I would begin to feel more and more new as I stepped into this process and it came to me that it was forgiveness.

Forgiveness is a tricky word - cause I use to think it was about saying, "...that's alright or forget about it..." Um, I think forgiveness is more about seeing that the root of suffering grows very deep for people. Seeing deeper into unloving acts
I realize most of the time people are trying to protect themselves - inside they are frightened and fear leads many to self destruction. Forgiveness is knowing that the illusions are simply just that - no person, no place, no condition has power over me, nor does it have power of you. This is the ultimate truth.

Hugs,
Sis. Camara

DAYS 30&31 LoVe FeSt: Love and Foolishness

Sistahs, HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!!!
I suspect so many people stop loving out of feeling like a Fool they had a 'bad' experience with love. Plenty of times I have been in situations where later I was like "damn! I was such a fool!" I would just feel so ashamed and wonder how I could not see it coming AND I still got up - dusted myself off and kept going. This is the story of the Fool.

The Fool is not actually a stupid or clueless person, in fact the Fool is the most enlightened. Where some people would cut-off learning after a bad experience, the Fool keeps experience coming towards her. She trusts and she trusts again, each time she learns a little bit more about herself and the path in front of her opens up to new adventures.

Sistahs, observe the Fool in you...is she in there engaging in new experiences or is she wounded and sitting off to the side feeling ashamed? The Fool is the first card in the tarot deck and I think this is because we all need to be open to experience to begin the journey. Yes, we will learn from experiences and need not repeat certain experiences but we also welcome new, beautiful, powerful experiences.

Hugs,
Sis Camara